inna ma3al 3sri yusra

for so many years i've been living, studying and doing things, i believed that after every hardship, ada kesenangan.

IT IS a very bloody experience to be posted somewhere you dont belong to, with no relatives nor friends. with lack of keberanian to drive, this drive me crazy for the 1st 2nd days at my work country. i am so lucky to have a very supportive family. i thought i was being independent all this while, but no, humans always need each other.

the environment was really new, driving style was different and tooooo many motorcycles that drive me crazy. no rules of course. daaa! drive at about 50km/j only ok!!

orang2nya baik2..ok la..but i hated when people call me doctor out of workplace. i felt like a god or what coz poeple are respecting me so much and feeling really different from me. csn u imagine that my housemate call me doctor? is that so menggelikan. i felt like a king or what. like kasta something.
And yes, that happens. is that when u are a doctor so u should have some type of kasta and u are up one level from others? i dont get it..we are working, everybody has their own roles. nurses, dental assistants and doctors. everybody are important. but i hated when my doctor colleague fydo as i am uses 'i' 'u' as pengganti diri. and i dont know..they have kinda something...that if i were the nurses and dsas, i'll feel really annoyed, despite that the dsas and nurses like really respect u wajib senyum and tegur if jumpa doctors tengah jalan, even me the fydo.

yes u should respect each other BUT i really felt tenang when i bahasakan diri as akak to my housemate. its like, WHEW, i can be normal.

i want to be normal like everybody else.

one thing about this place, please cuci toiletsss!! argh!