extirpate pulp sampai habis, sakitlaaa!!

hey you, the very unexperienced fydo yang agak bo***, kau banyak buat salah ok...patient datang aku plak yang kene habiskan kerja ko! tapi kalo ko tanya, aku malas nak jawab...bila ko buat salah barulah aku nak condemn ko...aii..ko bukan tanggungjawab aku...lantak ko la nak buat apa, salah, ko tanggung sendiri..aku malas nak ajar. lagipun ko dari mana..jordan? tak pernah dengar..kitorang dari UM beeeb~class!

petikan di atas ni ialah apa yang aku rasa beberapa senior aku pk. what? perbezaan sebab kaum? ---> absolutely right!!

about pulp extirpation, aku tak habes extirpate pulp dia..aku at least nak la backing diri, kata sini tak guna NaOCL, so aku 1st time buat, memangla something wrong. aku memang tak pernah kluarkan pulp seketul, sebab kalo gune NaOCL tu,pulp dia hancur kot.
dia kata tak, ko memang kene gune mechanical instrumentation walaupun gune NaOCL sekalipun. YELA, aku tahulah, tapi at least mechanical cleaning tak perlu so harsh kan, kalo dah gune NaOCL? hmmm....memangle aku salah, pueh hati? suruh ajar tak mao! eeeeeee...............!!!!!!!!!!!!

kalo extirpate pulp, sila pusing2kan barbed broach, engage pulp bebaik, then tarik kluar. memang die warna kekuningan sikit, bercampur darah. seketul panjang. macam ulat. tapi tak bergerak.

pastu, kalo ko rasa ada tertinggal lagi, janganla letak CaOH oiii....letaklah ledermix or endopaste. mereka ada analgesic property.
kalo tertinggal pulp lagi memang saket nak mati. macam patient semalam yang menjerit 'shit' dan macam mati jek, kata senior aku. (dia bukan kata macam nak mati, tapi macam mati terus...hahahah). aku rasa CaOH ada induce inflammation sket, so memang saket r. bila dah cleaning n shaping, baru boleh letak CaOH okeh!!


AKU BELAJAR HARI INI, ALHAMDULILLAH.

tapi tobat takmao panggil/tanya/minta counter sign dengan senior kaum lain tu. sombongnya, sakit hati aku, kalo bab2 kerja.
tapi time bukan bab kerja nak borak2 ngan aku baiknya...nampak sangat kaki ampu, sebab aku melayu, ko nak kiss my butt so u think i'll jaga you???

tagging oncall

1st time aku tagging oncall...agak kecuakan kerna sebelum ni aku de tgk video2 maxilllofacial injury, muka hancur, koyak rabak..di komputer pun aku takut tengok, apatah lagi dengan mata kasar...so, 1st case, aku dapat, awal febuary. 10 malam. otw ke casualty(emergency), terketar2 jalan sebab nervous tengok ambulans neno2, orang ramai kumpul kat luar..oh my, please janganlah MVA(motor vehicle accident) case! then aku terjatuh sikit, haha..tempat tu gelap. seb baik xde org tengok, aku gelakkan diri sendiri aje. nervous beb!

rupanya baby jatuh, ade hematoma sikit aje, no active bleeding. no LOC(loss of conciousness) , no giddiness, no ENT ( ear nose throat) bleeding. only STI (soft tissue injury). so prescribed syrup paracethamol 120mg. only.

2nd case was, at 630pm, a 13/m/ male pedestrian was hit by a motorbike (MB). sustained fibula fracture, LOC, but regained consciousness after some time.sustained left facial swelling and L/W (laceration wound) at left buccal mucosa.

done : T & S (toilet n suturing).

imp (important) : suspected left zygomatic bone fracture, need further investigation.

3rd case, budak jatuh beskal. haih...gigi avulsed, tinggal kt rumah - unable to relocate teeth as teeth was left at home. (saying goodbye to gigi depan duuuh!). sustained STI , T & S done.

4th case, 89/m/male MVA case ( motorbike vs lorry). L/W at lower lip, T & S done. abrasion wound at nose.

5th case aku kt border line. pt (patient) tgh admit, still at A & E (admittance and emergency? not sure) aku tau die tgh admit kul 650am. aku punye tagging habeskul 7. so...lama sangat admitnye, aku pun dah kene balik KL, so pass tu fydo yg tagging kul 7 am hrtu....weweeee

bes gak tagging oncall..menjadikan aku lebih bersedia dan tenang dalam bekerja. sepanjang week oncall,senior aku memang takbley tido sgt. aku? tidoooo sedap ajor, kah3...langsung tak terasa yang aku oncall! betapa nikmatnya jadi fydo, tak rasa ada tanggungjawab, but still berpeluang belajar dengan tagging! berpeluang merasai experience without responsibility. takde responsibility tu yang paling mahal sekali!

kenape ye, aku dapat rasa yang ada senior bangsa berlainan yang double standard kt aku? kalo aku tanya, malas nak jawab, malas nak ajar, tapi bila aku buat silap, sukanya dia nak marah. takperlu bias kaum boleh tak? jahat dibalas jahat, jangan lupa tu!

i am feeling lonely

1) i felt lonely and empty.
i dont have close friends at taiping, i dont have friends yang at least...baik! and aku tak mau aku hanyut which memang sangat mudah hanyut, di kala lonely sebegini, so, aku xmau join xtvt kawan2 laen...which, worsen my loneliness!! tell me, at this age, what should i actually do?


2) i am soo not the one!
i've just read my diary, and suddenly i felt that i am soo not the one! kisah2 suka duka dalam diary aku..if i'm the one, i'll not be me at this moment..
this song by dewa (pupus) really suits the situation.
i believe in qadha n qadar, so take note that i'm not desperate.hehee

3) i am down!!
i've been staying away from family since i was 13 years old! since that time, i never stayed at home, more than the time i stayed at hostels/renthouses. i've studied abroad for 5 years, than i had to work far from family again! aku dah lama mengimpikan untuk bekerja dan tidur di rumah!! aku pergi asrama and ovc memang atas kehendak aku. tapi aku kerja jauh ni bukan atas kehendak aku!!! soo distressing!!

conclusion :

1) Allah with me, tidakkah dengan mengingati Allah, hati kan tenang?
2) I am not the one, but i'm the two!...eh?
3) try not to look so down by smiling. it can reduce your stress maybe.