i am feeling lonely

1) i felt lonely and empty.
i dont have close friends at taiping, i dont have friends yang at least...baik! and aku tak mau aku hanyut which memang sangat mudah hanyut, di kala lonely sebegini, so, aku xmau join xtvt kawan2 laen...which, worsen my loneliness!! tell me, at this age, what should i actually do?


2) i am soo not the one!
i've just read my diary, and suddenly i felt that i am soo not the one! kisah2 suka duka dalam diary aku..if i'm the one, i'll not be me at this moment..
this song by dewa (pupus) really suits the situation.
i believe in qadha n qadar, so take note that i'm not desperate.hehee

3) i am down!!
i've been staying away from family since i was 13 years old! since that time, i never stayed at home, more than the time i stayed at hostels/renthouses. i've studied abroad for 5 years, than i had to work far from family again! aku dah lama mengimpikan untuk bekerja dan tidur di rumah!! aku pergi asrama and ovc memang atas kehendak aku. tapi aku kerja jauh ni bukan atas kehendak aku!!! soo distressing!!

conclusion :

1) Allah with me, tidakkah dengan mengingati Allah, hati kan tenang?
2) I am not the one, but i'm the two!...eh?
3) try not to look so down by smiling. it can reduce your stress maybe.