trusting a diary more

being an adult, sometimes i trusted no one, and trusting my blog more.

i have a problem. different people give different ideas/solution, which in my view, reflects what they experienced/what they want.
sometimes i cant give full trust on them because they are human, human tend to do things that will give benefit to themselves, and sometimes with less thinking about the consequences to the person with problem. the only person that will think critically of the consequences is me. i am responsible of my own happiness. i need to think this way, but keep this to myself, if not my way of thinking will be regarded as selfish.

rasa sedih, rasa tersepit. rasa lost. rasa...takpernah rasa ini akan terjadi. lagi dewasa, lagi banyak liku. lagi besar ujian.

taktahu nak luah pada sape. taktahu nak buat keputusan apa.
rasa takut dan buntu.
rasa nak lari, tapi takboleh, sebab kaki dah diikat. aku ada anak yang masih kecil. rasa nak buat keputusan yang menggembirakan diri, tapi untuk masa panjang, anak yang kecil akan menuntut.

tanggungjawab.
Allah, suluhkan aku jalan.