1001 things to do during holiday

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get up,open your eyes,u're ruining yourself!

yet nothing happened.

neturei karta (Islam tidak memusuhi yahudi)

Baru sekejap tadi,saya tonton jejak rasul, yang menceritakan mengenai penganut agama yahudi. Mereka bukanlah zionis, malah zionis tidak berasal dari yahudi. Zionis mengajar arrogance dan aggressiveness,tetapi yahudi mengajar belas kasihan dan perikemanusiaan.

Naturei karta - sebuah pertubuhan yahudi orthodox yang menentang zionism, menentang pendudukan zionist di palestin, bahkan tidak menyokong penubuhan negara haram itu.

WHAT IS THE NETUREI KARTA?

Neturei Karta opposed the establishment of and retain all opposition to the existence of the so-called "State of Israel"!


The name was given to a group of Orthodox Jews in Jerusalem who refused (and still refuse) to recognize the existence or authority of the so-called "State of Israel" and made (and still make) a point of publicly demonstrating their position, the position of the Torah and authentic unadulterated Judaism. click here

Neturei karta bahkan mengadakan demontrasi penentangan terhadap zionism, dan mereka juga pernah dicederakan golongan zionist.

Menurut seorang ulama palestin, zionist menggunakan agama yahudi sebagai topeng kepada aktiviti keganasan mereka.

wallahua3lam.
hancurlah zionist selamanya!

kesunyian ini terlalu indah

Di dalam kesunyian
Kurasa gelombangnya
Menyintaimu satu kewajipan
Tapi tak terluah dengan perkataan

Tika fajar menyinsing
Kusentuh sinar kasih
Dari matamu dekat dan terasing
Aku menanti singkapan tabir cinta
Aku menanti saaat menjadi nyata

Kesunyian ini terlalu indah
Walaupun pahit untuk menelan
Walaupun pedih sanggupku tahan
Dan kurelakannya

Puteri di pintu mahligai
Kulihat kasihmu melambai
Walaupun jauh tapi jelas
Jiwaku menyentuh jiwamu

Puteri di pintu mahligai
Nyatakan segala impian
Sambutlah tangan sambutlah
Semoga terlepas segala siksaan

Dengan sayap impian
Ingin terbang ke sana
Membawa cinta sebesar dunia
Apa jua milikku dan kutahu
Hanya untukmu

Di Pintu Mahligai
Artist: Iklim


Aku nak bercerita pasal vokalisnya yang bersuara serak+beralun=akuminatgila, Saleem.

He is mixed indian muslim-malay. he grew up with an ambition to be a succesful fisherman, lived at terengganu(aku minat negeri pantai itu). How a person can live with an ambition like that, he must be someone kinda kg, tak berapa developed, yet bercita-cita tinggi. The only thing he can think of was being a nelayan. i like nelayans btw.(and i like people of low strata who wins the battle of the poverty, just by being ambitious and hardworking)

ok, sebab dia ada banyak benda yang aku suka, so aku minat wei.

Aku dengar n tengok dia nyanyi, rasa macam ada keikhlasan di sebalik keburukan yang ada.

He worked at a canteen, then he established a band, Iklim. He succeed. But then,out of nowhere, in the mid of his fame, he was caught -drug addict. sebelum tu memang dia ada masalah komitmen, thats why people singkirkan dia and senaraihitam etc.

After all, selepas bebas dari penjara, dia dijemput lagi merakam album, meletop lagi album dia.Buat album maaf/juwita for his first wife. Then after few years, kena tangkap lagi menagih. bebas, buat album, meletops lagi kaw!

Tu la nak katanya, Allah bagi rezeki dia di situ. Walau buruk nama, tapi Allah bagi rezeki dia melimpah ruah di bidang suara. Suara dia diminati dari malaysia ke indon, thai, filipina. Padahal rupa biasa, imej buruk, tapi Allah nak bagi seorang bernama Saleem ini suatu kemenangan dan nama yang tidak pudar dek zaman, tidak tenggelam dek nama2 baru di persada suara.

Bagi aku, terselit suatu keikhlasan, mungkin. tapi dia belum respon terhadap hidayah, atau hidayah belum menyapa?

Sebelum ni baca mengenai husnul khatimah. Cara kita meninggal dunia itulah yang akan menentukan cara kehidupan kita di akhirat kelak. Boleh jadi kehidupan seseorang itu berdosa, tapi di saat akhir hayatnya tiba-tiba berubah menjadi taatkanNya, lalu itulah cara hidupnya di negeri akhirat, begitu juga sebaliknya. Hakikatnya, Allah sahaja yang tahu. Moga-moga kita hidup dengan menaatiNya, dan mati juga dalam ketaatan kepadaNya, ameen.

Aku berdoa juga untuk saleem, kebaikannya, juga untuk seluruh umat Islam di dunia, agar kita semua mendapat husnul khatimah.

btw, this song, liriknya mengenai bidadari syurga. kalau kita amati liriknya, mereka bukan bercinta pun. tapi mengenai seorang lelaki yanng ingin menggapai cinta puteri di pintu mahligai(syurga). Lagu rock/balada dolu2 banyak unsur ketuhanan, tapi amalan mereka, wallahua3lam.

ps : boleh ke tak dengar lagu ada guna alat muzik haram? astaghfirullah.taktahu.

that little thing - EGO with perencah of makna diri and heart

Egoism
Definition :
1.
the habit of valuing everything only in reference to one's personal interest; selfishness ( opposed to altruism).
2.
egotism or conceit.
3.
Ethics . the view that morality ultimately rests on self-interest.

well, whatever the definition is, i hate people who is ego (like usually people say)

humpphh..urgh. i am ego myself, but i cant help to reduce it. it happens naturally. maybe actually people around me are trying their best to just ignore my ego naturality, and accept it as it is right? i should be grateful.

but when it comes to someone else being ego, i am best at making them benefit nothing for being ego. can i actually be that? dont answer coz i wont listen. haha

makna diri.

dulu aku pernah terbang ke angkasa, dengan harapan dapat mencari makna diri. dan kini aku terbang lagi, memandu jalan pulang.namun, terjumpakah, makna diri?

i doubt it.

i did found a long list of changes i needed to make, but it was just too hard to change.
i need to sacrifice.
i did sacrificed, once, 5 years back, those times were kinda good, i tamed my nafsu i think. i forced myself to do things, which means i did not act according to what i want(nafsu).
but i still feel something missing.
so i changed back.

lastly, i became myself now.
is it better or worse?
Only He knows.

(me myself were doing experiments on myself. i started doing experiments on myself since i was 14 yr old. LOL. now i think i'm too old to do experiments. LOL again.)

HEART

i just wanna say that i am not a rock that if u did anything to the rock, the rock will never move a milimeter.
i am a human being with heart and feeling.
am i someone's so cold? i guess so. cant help it though..
i am cold, i need some(thing?one?) to heat me (back?again?up?)
sometimes i feel like saying ,'i am not a puppy-yucky thing that u can do anyting u like then leave, or wronged me yet feeling nothing'
tak sangka this '30-an tahun feeling' is really yucky.

leaving jordan and establishing life in malaysia

i just couldn't say how my feelings are. mixed feeling.

Jordan, specifically irbid taught me everything. Everything that comes with it; friends that lived with me for 5 years, neighbours, persatuan2, arabs baik or not,lecturers, everything.

Masa berkemas2 nak balik tu, i'm really truely busy. 2 weeks time to do everything, syahadah thingy and kosongkan rumah, i think i would have fainted. i did caught a cold, actually. packing in jordan and unpacking in malaysia plak. isk, life is all about working, guys! Pastu bila dah sampai malaysia, aku baru sempat nak berfeeling, since everything settled only when i flew to malaysia. Kepala ringan bila rumah dah kosong, nobody called to uruskan apa2 je, -aramex-zulfa-mifc-abu ayman si sohib bayt-jiran menyerang sbb air menitik kt rmh mereka-abu yassin si haris minta duet lagi-rumah banjir-calling juniors utk amik brg- simply, everything about kosongkan rumah. next time kena sediakan perkhidmatan penerbangan utk sebuah bilik or rumah. =p
Aku tahu pedih sungguh ditinggalkan orang. I just dont know how they'll live, i'm so sorry! i cant imagine if i'm the one who'll be left by them. Aku bersyukur untuk itu, but i'm sorry for them. Lets just forget us so that u'll live better hmm? saying this with tears, really. If i think of jordan, i'll think of you, u know who you are =).

One last BIG HEAVY PRECIOUS present for me before going back for good, from my best girls through out my life in irbid, thank you. You are the best, of all. Its the best memory i ever had, that 3 days we had together, thanx girls. T_T

Yaaah...its time for me to start a new life in malaysia! That house at datuk sulaiman which pencuri just masuk, adui, hahha. My sister already prepared spaces for my stuff, barang2ku yg pelbagai. hahha. need a lot of spaces, please and thank you.

Everything was okay, i'm relaxing to the max, like i always did for the last 5 years i'm here. But wait, i already graduated and i will be working someday. Someday i mean sekejap lagi uui! Gotta prepare everything, confidence people!

Registered at spa, lapor diri at jpa, registered at kementerian kesihatan malaysia and malaysian dental council - done. now i'm waiting for interview, and of course need to do some reading and studying. Hearing some bad news about first year dental officer (FYDO), i think i need to do some extra work to get prepared.

getting unconnected to the internet for the last few days, i cant work, nor can i get updated, nor can i go surfing like i always did.

InsyaAllah i'll do my best, gotta go improving myself!

last few days

it has been about 3 days after my last paper of final exams, and after knowing that we graduated safely. Now i'm doing bits of stuff and works , for the last time here, and for the graduation thingy.
Visiting the tailor in wastul balad, asking her to sew my graduation robe, she congrats me. oh my, that's my last time visiting her. i remembered her who has a very good skill at sewing, neatly. we once talked about gold as she saw my locket when i wanted to try my jilbab in front of her. Iman, yes her name is iman. she even asked me to bring her one, and she'll pay for me coz she said that gold from malaysia are better. well, i'm going back forever now and not gonna come back again. poor her. i remembered how i frequently came to her because her works are superb. she praised malaysian for not wearing tight clothes, knowing our aurat as a muslimah. well, thats my last time there guys! cried already.

then today, i went to the dry cleaner, the verrry nice guy and respectfull, eventhough i dont think he's much of a multazimin,muhtaram people as said here( wara'). he congrat'ed me, and he asked about what i gonna specialized, i said maybe jirahah (surgery) . he said, kal untha, lazim takhassus bil nisa'ie, aw atfal. ( as a women, you should specialized in OnG, or pediatrics) . ana tibb asnan, mush basyari. iza ana duktur bashari, insyaALlah bitkhasus bi nisaie. ( i said i'm a dentist, if i'm a doctor, i'll specialized in OnG) .. right, i love listening to someone from the street's advice. They are sincere, and i got to know people. its ..just nice. jalan2 cari kawan sambil bina iman.

well, life is not about keeping memory.is not about reminiscing only. you are not living in past but live for future okayh!
being abroad for 5 years, it is really TIME for me to go back. i heard mom's calling already. serve your country and family, that's your real job now. or you can say profession as in admin you just learnt this last semester.

lets stop the damages

what is that actually?
It's stopping exams. its simply exams=damages. why? because during exams, we stay on the chair or being immobile for the whole day studying. We read from notes that we wrote with veryvery small letter. we dont sleep, or at least we slept with nightmares, dreaming that its already the day of exam and we haven't finished studying. we ate maggy for God sake thats carcinogenic! we forced our brain until migraine is what we got after every exams. we slept during the day after EVERY exams. (WHAT?!) we forgot to eat.-maybe its an advantage =)

lets just stop it. there's one paper letf, insyaAllah khayr.

Satu benda aku nak cakap kat sini, we're not hamba of media, please. Media sibuk pasal LL4G, kita cakap psl LL4G. media sibuk pasal world cup, kita sibuk pasal world cup lah pulak. then kalau pasal AF, AF la pulak ke? Ada ke kita ikut pkembangan media supaya org cop kita mengikut arus dunia mcm tu? please. obsessed dengan media, atau apa2 saja menurunkan nilai diri seseorang, thats it.

Setiap orang perlu ada pendirian, atau prinsip masing2. at least kita tahu kenapa kita beri perhatian mengenai ll4g, sebab kita sokong org nak menyelamatkan gaza. kenapa nak menyelamatkan gaza, sebab itu masjid ke3 dalam islam. kenapa dan kenapa. ada asasnya, bukan mengikut orang membuta tuli. bukan untuk menonjol atau menunjuk2 sahaja.
lepas kutuk2 israel, sokong pula world cup, siap jadi fan lagi. apa sejarahnya world cup, baca skeet! memang harus minat bola, kata ulama, tp jangan fanatik boleh tak? kalau fanatik dengan negara sendiri boleh tahan lagi, ni fanatik dekat negara lain, mesti negara tu sendiri pelik, ada peminat dari negara luar seperti malaysia nih.

adui..
kalau ada sesapa xsetuju tu, maaflah yek.
and i dont know how to write it in a better way than this.