heart

please let me talk about heart, feelings just this once.
i rarely express my feelings , i'm not an extrovert, and i dont accept me being labeled as introvert coz it sounds too negative. i need confidence, people.
well, when it comes to feelings, my lips are tied up, my actions stopped, i avoided everything that will flourish the feelings.
am i handicapped or what?
in my first teenagers time, i think its a gift, coz it'll avoid me doing things that are not good, and illegal in Islam, so alhamdulillah. But u know, now i'm too old to just ignore those feelings. some feelings such as love are needed in life, for the future, for husband and wife. so what should i do?

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