tagging oncall

1st time aku tagging oncall...agak kecuakan kerna sebelum ni aku de tgk video2 maxilllofacial injury, muka hancur, koyak rabak..di komputer pun aku takut tengok, apatah lagi dengan mata kasar...so, 1st case, aku dapat, awal febuary. 10 malam. otw ke casualty(emergency), terketar2 jalan sebab nervous tengok ambulans neno2, orang ramai kumpul kat luar..oh my, please janganlah MVA(motor vehicle accident) case! then aku terjatuh sikit, haha..tempat tu gelap. seb baik xde org tengok, aku gelakkan diri sendiri aje. nervous beb!

rupanya baby jatuh, ade hematoma sikit aje, no active bleeding. no LOC(loss of conciousness) , no giddiness, no ENT ( ear nose throat) bleeding. only STI (soft tissue injury). so prescribed syrup paracethamol 120mg. only.

2nd case was, at 630pm, a 13/m/ male pedestrian was hit by a motorbike (MB). sustained fibula fracture, LOC, but regained consciousness after some time.sustained left facial swelling and L/W (laceration wound) at left buccal mucosa.

done : T & S (toilet n suturing).

imp (important) : suspected left zygomatic bone fracture, need further investigation.

3rd case, budak jatuh beskal. haih...gigi avulsed, tinggal kt rumah - unable to relocate teeth as teeth was left at home. (saying goodbye to gigi depan duuuh!). sustained STI , T & S done.

4th case, 89/m/male MVA case ( motorbike vs lorry). L/W at lower lip, T & S done. abrasion wound at nose.

5th case aku kt border line. pt (patient) tgh admit, still at A & E (admittance and emergency? not sure) aku tau die tgh admit kul 650am. aku punye tagging habeskul 7. so...lama sangat admitnye, aku pun dah kene balik KL, so pass tu fydo yg tagging kul 7 am hrtu....weweeee

bes gak tagging oncall..menjadikan aku lebih bersedia dan tenang dalam bekerja. sepanjang week oncall,senior aku memang takbley tido sgt. aku? tidoooo sedap ajor, kah3...langsung tak terasa yang aku oncall! betapa nikmatnya jadi fydo, tak rasa ada tanggungjawab, but still berpeluang belajar dengan tagging! berpeluang merasai experience without responsibility. takde responsibility tu yang paling mahal sekali!

kenape ye, aku dapat rasa yang ada senior bangsa berlainan yang double standard kt aku? kalo aku tanya, malas nak jawab, malas nak ajar, tapi bila aku buat silap, sukanya dia nak marah. takperlu bias kaum boleh tak? jahat dibalas jahat, jangan lupa tu!

i am feeling lonely

1) i felt lonely and empty.
i dont have close friends at taiping, i dont have friends yang at least...baik! and aku tak mau aku hanyut which memang sangat mudah hanyut, di kala lonely sebegini, so, aku xmau join xtvt kawan2 laen...which, worsen my loneliness!! tell me, at this age, what should i actually do?


2) i am soo not the one!
i've just read my diary, and suddenly i felt that i am soo not the one! kisah2 suka duka dalam diary aku..if i'm the one, i'll not be me at this moment..
this song by dewa (pupus) really suits the situation.
i believe in qadha n qadar, so take note that i'm not desperate.hehee

3) i am down!!
i've been staying away from family since i was 13 years old! since that time, i never stayed at home, more than the time i stayed at hostels/renthouses. i've studied abroad for 5 years, than i had to work far from family again! aku dah lama mengimpikan untuk bekerja dan tidur di rumah!! aku pergi asrama and ovc memang atas kehendak aku. tapi aku kerja jauh ni bukan atas kehendak aku!!! soo distressing!!

conclusion :

1) Allah with me, tidakkah dengan mengingati Allah, hati kan tenang?
2) I am not the one, but i'm the two!...eh?
3) try not to look so down by smiling. it can reduce your stress maybe.

fydo project : bahaya dari gunung

its sooo...free being a fydo, plus staying alone at taiping, made me do a lot of perkara lagha, but fortunately today, i managed to do something useful.

GUNUNG SEMANGGOL.

have u ever heard of this place? anywhere? yup, in history books. sejarah malaysia, maahad ihya as-syarif, gunung semanggol. di maahad ini, terlahir pejuang2 kebangsaan+agama, tertubuh persatuan-persatuan yang menggalakkan pertumbuhan ekonomi melayu, persatuan ulama dan sebagainya, suatu masa dulu. kerana itu, pihak penjajah menyebut 'bahaya dari gunung', merujuk kepada pejuang tanah air pada masa itu.

dan kini, kawasan ini masih lagi dihuni orang-orang yang hebat semangatnya. aktiviti2 kecil yang menjurus kepada perjuangan. no details please.

aku naaaak gi situ, melihat sejarah dan menyerap semangat perjuangan di situ, plus, ada sawah padi wowee. tapi will it do if i go alone? my friend is sick, and i'm dying to go. i'm now sedang mencari semangat yang hilang, and i know i can find it here, at perak, .

there's so much thing i can do and learn, but not everything we can do.



lagi pasal maahad ihya as-syarif

tepeng took my 5 kilos

life has really eaten me, my 5 kilos. i loss 5 kilos within 3 months.
maybe im just lonely that it has taken my appetite away.
an advantage?
stop wasting time, go do something good. (alone?)
life's that.

a boring life can really eats your soul

its killing me. now. miss everything that belongs to me : family, bestfriends, i think studying is something i missed too!

had to go to boring place again!




H E L P

keep breathing

1) life is swallowing me up to an extent that i cant breath anymore.

2) wishing to learn something new at tepeng but tepeng always left me alone ( or i left tepeng? every weekend at kl lol)

3)i want to be a better person, but being myself is more comfortable.

4) i think i did a lot of mistakes, but i dont admit it. or i'm not aware of it...or, nobody tells me?

5) i think i need not to think too much coz life will just goes on.My heart says just relax ok! but my brain says u shouldnt do nothing, time is like a sword.

6) eventually, i sat in front of this handy pc, writing everything in a blog, which, will not change anything...hmmm?

dentists gotta be..managing LIFE at Taiping

assalamualaikum wbt.

ho-la everybody!
u know what, bila kerja, kita mestilah amanah. simple right? bile buat salah,admit it, n apologise right? everybody knows, this is common sense. and it become more important, when u're someone who people trust you, and they need your skillful service. doctors, dentists? YES!

hello, my colleague boleh tu rasa bangga banyak buat silap time fydo? oh-my~ pastu disebabkan government officers are protected by gomen if they are sued, so making errors are something so easy n biaser aje! daaa... as if there's no God watching you! as if there is no life after this for judgement! hello, WAKE UP!

my life is so simple. betulkan niat, aku berniat bekerja (ofkos sebab cari duet gak) sebab nak duet untuk bayar segala expenses, and not to mnyusahkan parents kan, dan also sebab nak serve the people. aku bukan kerja sebab WOW, aku seorang doctor, n people respect me, orang panggil aku doctor, wow, aku boleh berlagak and all....??? this is so ridiculous and immature.

bila jadi doctor kita up satu stage dr org len, then boleh suruh2 orang len sesuka hati, n people kena bagi extra care n respect for people named 'Dr'. Yeuwww...is this for real? low-minded people.

memang, kalo tak tegas dsa akan pijak kepala. this is the thing i havent experienced yet, but i dont think its such a biggie. RELAX!